Right behind you
Its been a gray, rainy morning in Copenhagen. Things seem to have come to a halt on my priority list and I feel an urgency to get things moving. While trying to think of solutions I slumped tired in my chair. I wondered why God was not helping me do his will regardless to my efforts and how he felt so far right now. Unexpectedly for a moment the room lit up very bright. I looked outside to find under the gray sky the sun gleaming in the windows of the facing building which reflected back into mine. The clouds must have parted behind me for just a minute.
I was surprised to bask in and catch a glympse of the sun today, I couldn’t see the actual sun and I was fortunate to have what was ahead of me to reflect it back to my attention! I guess that’s how it is at times. It was enough to remind me and feel how close He is, even if I can’t always see it.
Posted on January 20th, 2009 by emma
Filed under: YW, bits n bobs, love
Sweet. I love that.
I’ve been having a tough time too – probably with some of the same things on your list.
I was feeling useless and lost and a bit like I was fading when Stuart surprised me with a 2 night stay in a themed room of a hotel. We just got back this morning. I now feel like I can conquer the world!
We all have work, let no one shirk!
That sucks about not getting maternity leave. It’s taken me a loooong time to be ok with not having kids right now.
We put off having kids because I don’t have health insurance (blue card is just for Europe) and because the idea freaked Stuart out. Bless.
It’s been so difficult hearing friends announce their pregnancy, watching them have their baby and then announce they’re pregnant again. It was a painful cycle for me. I was constantly feeling like I was being punished – and with the health things that you know about add one more. It happened over Christmas…
It’s been hard but now I think I’m ok. I really hope things work out for you. You have great design talent and you’re in a funky, bright place. Don’t you ever want to open your own interior design company?